A Day With Which I Am Deeply Satisfied

That day was today. Actually I’ve been satisfied with most of my days recently, but this day received an extra dose of good. After a quick 9am discussion section, I spontaneously decided to BART down to Fremont to hang out with my mums (afternoon lecture canceled!). Actually, I had planned on going out to SF to look for a bridesmaid dress, but realized it would be the same BART trip down to Fremont, which is a much better place because my family lives there. And so I ended up spending a few hours with my mom.

I actually even finished the rest of my PS 166 reading while waiting for her to finish working at the gas station. As she worked, I watched through the surveillance monitors. In a moment, I was overwhelmed with a desire to give her everything. She gave up all that could have been for her, and let God close so many doors, to become a mother who raised me and Sharon in prayer and surrender. Watching her interact with unconcerned customers in her deeply accented English tugged at a string deep in me somewhere. She deserves everything for the everything gave me. And if a mother’s love is understood to be so deep, how great the Father’s love for us? Deep satisfied sigh.

I BARTed back to a great rehearsal with AiR, and quality time hanging out and talking with Justin. Jesus blesses my days so wonderfully.

I am in a place where my doing comes more and more from my being. My being is beloved, redeemed, chosen, pruned, filled, commissioned. My doing is every conversation, activity, and choice I make about how to spend my time. The effects of the latter bless me deeply because they are the fruits of a deeply purposed me. Thank you, Spirit.

Thursday Sep 9 @ 02:03am