Reflections on My Last 6 Weeks & a Date with My Parents

Honestly, I am growing so intensely in this season. It is intense, dude. I have never seen the world from this high up; I see that I’ve barely been inches from the ground all this time. Can’t wait to really launch off. I have never known blessings to give so much life. These blessings come in knowledge (of myself, of commission, of purpose) and challenges that stem from God’s jealousy over me.

Tonight I am basking in the joy of just having been able to connect with both of my parents in a deeper yet more natural way. To be able to be aligned with them about the convictions I’ve been receiving about my life and spiritual walk, to discuss society and humanity and brokenness and healing and God’s heart for it all, to share stories and find the same things funny, to receive godly advice from my dad, to be affirmed and blessed by them about the daughter and woman I turned out to be, about my future marriage and narrow-pathed life - vat a blessing.

Tonight, I spent quality time with my pops, chauffeuring him to Uncle Joseph’s house, where I saw and hugged my gramps for the first time in a year. We proceeded onto IHOP in Milpitas, where we met up with mums and the three of us shared an omelet, mashed potatoes/broccoli, pancakes, and crepes with yogurt & fruit, talking talking talking as if we were friends or something. It was great.

And to sum up my BAyUP experience… I don’t think I can do it. But what I can say is that the Holy Spirit is so good! I love I love, I love Your presence.

Friends, my life, our lives aren’t privileged without purpose, without commission. I’m here in this broken world to worship my God, and in doing that, justly distribute wealth, and love as God wants so badly for the broken to know that they are loved. I am embracing that I am the Lord’s servant. May it be done to me as he has said, for nothing is impossible with God, and he has called me into righteousness. He, who spoke the earth into being, speaks me into righteousness. Game over. I am striving for that now more than ever.

Wow this whole post is very jumbled and incoherent. Maybe I’ll try again later. Goodbye!

Friday Aug 8 @ 01:46am