Thursday Nights Are Really Great

My only schedule free evenings of the week, and my gateway into the weekend. I like it because I am free to attend community events like Family Fun Night (tonight) or THE SCREENING OF ‘NEFARIOUS,’ NEXT THURSDAY 9/29, 7PM @ WHEELER AUDITORIUM. I also like it because it ends at 5pm, with a legal studies lecture that I enjoy, and I finally get to walk really slowly on the way home (I usually walk really fast, and I don’t know why).

I’ve been reflecting on the past few months for me, processing every major relationship and event in my life up to this time. I’ve seen that in losing something that was once mine, the battle within me to swallow the loss is so difficult because of several different forces pulling at me. One reason I continue to wrestle with myself is that I genuinely grieve the loss. Another reason is that I actually have a deep desire to be comforted, tended to. Lastly, I believe I struggle so hard to fully accept loss because I want to legitimize the significance of that which was lost. I want myself and everyone around me to know that what I first had, and cherished, and held to such high esteem, was and is significant. Ultimately, I care because it’s a reflection of me and my ability to pursue and maintain only the best of the best.

But what trumps the pride and that deep hunger for legitimacy is the love of my Father who says that his love being pursued over me is much too worthy to be considered a mere option. The grandiosity of him pursuing me leaves me no option, but to say “yes.” This situation that I find myself in, is Grace manifested. At this point, I am healed and renewed, not because of my will power or strength. I’ve literally been compelled into healing. It’s so magical, guys. PTL

Thursday Sep 9 @ 10:38pm
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